It's been forever, but here I am again, not so young, not as naieve, and 25kgs heavier. Now instead of being small, I'm big and bingeing and purging and starving, always the same, always hard, but now I've cut down, I'm healthier, and the clarity of nutrition helps me see... I have got a problem. There, I've said it. I'm not who I used to be, not by a long way, and I've grown, but I still have a problem with eating, and I'm working on it, for real this time, because it's been too long. And I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to be me, and me only, and not let some disorder dictate how I live my life, if I don't do this now it's only going to get harder, and harder and harder, it's already hard, it's already been years... too many years to count.